One of the biggest challenges is seeing a day through the eyes of someone else.  I do not mean when we try to see it from the other person’s perspective, but in the flow of life, of deadlines and struggle. It can feel like the capability to do so leaves us or at least becomes… Continue reading

For some, I was on the other side, an adversary. For those who loved me, a spectacle. No matter what, it was bad. Resigned to this failure, this me, the alien who I lived with but did not understand.  Even the self-deception. Absolutely ridiculous.  There is low and then there is low. To live and… Continue reading

Thursday, November 23, 2023 The politics of pain  Amid great distraction in which survival could not be, the deafening white noise that I hate, shields me from what lies underneath.  The pendulum of merciless competition swings back the other way tearing me into the reality that in the politics of pain, I am losing. Like… Continue reading

 I find that there is always more to the end of the line, the walls, the fences, and the barriers.  We live inside them and they are forever telling us, “No”.  But, what if I say yes?  There is always one more swing, one more push, I scream, reaching inside and pushing some more.  No… Continue reading

 On a cold Tuesday morning, the snowflakes fall from the dimly lit sky barely contrasting to the over night white cover on the ground.  I hear the ash crackling in the wood stove.  Despite my denial, somehow we crossed the threshold of August 1st  but looked around as we stepped over only to find ourselves… Continue reading